yesterday morning woke up by siew ting early in the morning .. hmm not bad .. early in the morning hear her sweet voice.. hahas.. but in her sweet voice i hear another sound .. her not feeling well de sound .. hmm makes me worried.. she said she not feeling well.. i asked her to rest but she ended up telling me she ok liao ... will be meeting me later to go study... hmmm ... we planned to study with few of my other NYP friends at houngkang..... when i get out of house i receive her call .. asking me where am i .. i was like shit .. late liao ... she already reach !! i rush down to the bus stop and another thing happened .. i forgot to bring my maths calculus i promise i will bring for her ! .. wth wats wrong with me today .. i called her and said i rush back to take.. lucky i haven board the bus.. phew .. i made her waited for 1/2 hour !!! i never make people wait for me before de .. wats wrong with me today .. lol
we studied at the mac ... the day was like dam nice.. welll kinda ba .. cause we are always joking non-stop . hedy was the most crapy one .. lol and wei liang never fail his warewolf nonscense .. hahaha ... we were having much fun then .. but as for me .. is carring a weight in my heart all the while .. my smile never last long and it faded away .................... in my mind i ask myself .. even as a friend u didnt treat my invitation seriously .. were u being fair to me..... but i just be my normal self .. keeping it in my heart and never let her know .. i dont wanna hurt her.. idiot mind set right? .. reader will say this .. but i love her .. for no reason .. unless my heart is being dug out to be question...
at night .. i was suppose to meet jack they all at 7 plus .. but ended up.. i only manage to meet them at 9 plus .. loll ... we meet up and headed to east cost for dinner .. that was like 11 plus plus .. loll .. i also was like a living zombii.. hungry!!
after dinner we headed back... in the car of one of my friend .. i was like being treated like a dog.. being made speechless.. y???? cause i am sitting in his car.. wat can i do? but i know thats the last time i take his ride i tell myself .. everyone have a pride and i am not going to treat mine like trash .. am i am being sick being treated like a dog ... the most i can do is i dont go out thats all... and one thing i hate myself.. is that i am being useless.. and my life sux.. next life i would rather choose to be just a piece of rock.. no stress .. no thoughts .. no feeling .. and only rock by the beach .. each and every second is being wash by the sea water .. ist it great ... i am seriously tired of being a human ..
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