yesterday morning wake up in the morning and i msged her .. wat i know .. she is sick! she is sure to be suffering at home .. dam.. how i wish i was her someone to be with her.. i know she will not like it .. haix.. feeling useless .. wanna care .. but i cant ....... haix .. just continue with my life today .. T_T today i was wuppose to meet jack they all again .. for a movie .. transformer woot .. finally i get to catch it .. but however it doesnt went as smoothly as i thought it will be .. at first jack called me and let me know he will be coming to drive me to bedok .. thanks alot wo boss .. i heard that i was like really filled with thanks .. but on the road .. we meet up with few idiots driver who thinks that the road is theirs! .. almost cause us accident ! zzzz idiots ...
when we reach there .. things again! happened ... some misunderstanding between ck and her girl ba i think .. and through my experience .. (( my lesson learned)) =_= lll i kept quiet .. and hope it dont gets worse ... we reached pasir ris and meet up with the rest .. we had dinner at BBQ chicken .. i saw the prize i was like wanna faint ! .. it means that i will have to draw from my dam savings again! ... T_T i already spent a lot from there liao lo .. kns .. this time really siao liao.. i have been taking it more then i can put it back .. and its only 1 month like that .. i already spent a lot! faint @_@ zzz
we didnt manage to catch the movie at pasir ris .. so we went over to TM .. and again we cant watch it at TM .. then i have a really bad tummy ache .. dam.. i manage to try to clear it =x lol then we move on to centry square .. the slot was also dam fulled !!! but.. we manage to watch the midnight 1215 show .. this i guess is my 1st time catching such a late night show .. lol.. but luckily i got another friend jz.. he have a vehicle.. so jack drive him back to get his car.. then the rest was waiting at TM de mac .. we were like rotting like dead log over there.. how i wish i have my earpiece then .. zzz
after the movie .. i quiet like the effects and joke from the film .. hahaha .. and finally impossible had turn to possible then .. and i had my day.. quit enjoyable .. but!........... haix in my heart she cant leave my mind even for a sec .. i am just concern about her .. i really hopes she will get better or just best thing is totally recover from her illness .. haix
yesterday morning woke up by siew ting early in the morning .. hmm not bad .. early in the morning hear her sweet voice.. hahas.. but in her sweet voice i hear another sound .. her not feeling well de sound .. hmm makes me worried.. she said she not feeling well.. i asked her to rest but she ended up telling me she ok liao ... will be meeting me later to go study... hmmm ... we planned to study with few of my other NYP friends at houngkang..... when i get out of house i receive her call .. asking me where am i .. i was like shit .. late liao ... she already reach !! i rush down to the bus stop and another thing happened .. i forgot to bring my maths calculus i promise i will bring for her ! .. wth wats wrong with me today .. i called her and said i rush back to take.. lucky i haven board the bus.. phew .. i made her waited for 1/2 hour !!! i never make people wait for me before de .. wats wrong with me today .. lol
we studied at the mac ... the day was like dam nice.. welll kinda ba .. cause we are always joking non-stop . hedy was the most crapy one .. lol and wei liang never fail his warewolf nonscense .. hahaha ... we were having much fun then .. but as for me .. is carring a weight in my heart all the while .. my smile never last long and it faded away .................... in my mind i ask myself .. even as a friend u didnt treat my invitation seriously .. were u being fair to me..... but i just be my normal self .. keeping it in my heart and never let her know .. i dont wanna hurt her.. idiot mind set right? .. reader will say this .. but i love her .. for no reason .. unless my heart is being dug out to be question...
at night .. i was suppose to meet jack they all at 7 plus .. but ended up.. i only manage to meet them at 9 plus .. loll ... we meet up and headed to east cost for dinner .. that was like 11 plus plus .. loll .. i also was like a living zombii.. hungry!!
after dinner we headed back... in the car of one of my friend .. i was like being treated like a dog.. being made speechless.. y???? cause i am sitting in his car.. wat can i do? but i know thats the last time i take his ride i tell myself .. everyone have a pride and i am not going to treat mine like trash .. am i am being sick being treated like a dog ... the most i can do is i dont go out thats all... and one thing i hate myself.. is that i am being useless.. and my life sux.. next life i would rather choose to be just a piece of rock.. no stress .. no thoughts .. no feeling .. and only rock by the beach .. each and every second is being wash by the sea water .. ist it great ... i am seriously tired of being a human ..
back to blogging again .. new blog new life =) hope i will not die again lol..
school have been tiring and stressful .. nothing i know nothing i learn is successful .. haix .. i am still as slacking as ever .. ever since i enter poly i tell myself to study .. dont be like the same as i am when i am in ITE .. but seems that i am still as lost as ever .. hell .. i hope i am able to cope my studies .. ever since i see siew ting my face is always with a smile .. she never fail to make me happy .. and my love for her doesnt seems to stop .. even thought i got hurt by her .. but i hope by breaking up and starting all over again can enable us to create a stronger bond with each other.. hmm ... i always never fail to love a person whole heartedly .. but always fail to love a person correctly .. haiz
hope my friends around me to find wonderful partners .. and smile is always seen on their faces..
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